"Mein aisa kyu hu,Mein aisa kyu hu"
"Mein aisa kyu hu,Mein aisa kyu hu"
This was one hit song from Movie Lakshya. When the movie came i enjoyed this song, but i never thought i would be singing this for myself some day . I was never out of focus , than the way am now. Laziness has creped in me and am not able to get rid of it.
I am exactly in similar situation where in the hero (hirthick roshan) of film was facing. Hero dint had lakshya , so he wanted to do whatever that creeps in minds of his friend. When his friend wants to do MBA ,he also thinks that is right for him and then if same guy come and tell he wants to join army again , this also feels right option for him.
Similar thoughts are revolving around my head today. To put a few on paper. I want to take IAS exam when i see some people in my group have decided and working for it. I also want to take GATE exam and do well and get into IITs or IISC,when i see few more working towards GATE. There are other option which is in my mind like taking GRE and traveling out for MS.
These things reminds me one of my favourite titan add.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i9X7Lr-uplo
I wasn't like this when i was kid. When ever anyone used ask me what you want to become in future, without any second thought / hesitation i used to say "I want to become Cricketer" . Being a cricketer and representing country just became one of my childhood dreams. I still remember days when i used to be there in field under scorching sun for entire day, inspite when there were lot of politics in school team selection and i was just asked either field or being 12 th Man in team. As a kid i was very passionate about the game Cricket. I never used to miss a match on TV. I remember days when we used to go and sit in cable operators house with huge crowd without food for almost entire day and enjoy winning moments of Indian cricket team. My mom in such situations used to react in typical way like the other mothers. "What would you gain seeing that stupid game. Only players make money out of it and you guys just waste time for it." But still i never missed a game on TV. I had list all 10*11 players in my tongue tip who had participated in World cup 1996.(Even the Kenyan and UAE players who were debut ants for that world cup) . I used to memorize entire score cards of match and used to discuss about shots Sachin played with other guys in school. Those were best days of my life!!!
Now if i look back, May be i never seriously thought of what i really wanted to become. Thats reason why i ended up as stupid software engineer like millions in this country.
Ya time has come to decide on few things for my future and am in dilemma in deciding upon what to do. Here is list of items still revolving in my head.
Study hard for Civil service Exam and become an IAS/IPS/IFS officer.
Take GATE and get into any of IITs/IISC and become a research scientist
Write ISRO exam and join ISRO
Take Photography courses and become a professional phtographer.
Most disappointing option . Concentrate on work which i am doing in IBM right now and do tremendous progress there it self and in few years get married as a stupid software engineer after i start getting 1 lak sal per month
Most funniest option which came in my mind. Taking up umpire exams and becoming a Umpire for ICC. This is only way i still can dream daily about cricket.( Just imagine myself in "Ind vs Pak world cup final" standing as umpire and guys like Dhoni , Sachin and Zak pleading for leg before in front of me ).
